for most of my life i did not want to have my own children, heck i didn't even want to have a husband! but here i am, a SAHM living in a small village in Scotland. who would have thought it? not me, and not many of the people that i have met in my life. i hear it constantly, "you're a mom???" or "I never pictured you with a family!" i take these little comments as compliments, because i know no other way to react. i mean i have done a good job of putting the visage of independent female out there, and hopefully some people have taken some strength from that. but some people who know me longer -or even better- probably saw this phase of my life coming. i have loved being a teacher and here i am teaching my own child everyday. i have often wanted to make the world a better place, and now i have an even bigger passion for that because this is the world that my daughter will live. everyday is a new experience and a new challenge. right when i think i got this job cracked, something happens and i realize that being a mom is like being a high school teacher, every day is different and insightful. i am really lucky to be able to stay at home and watch my baby grow. I now have more respect than i ever had before for working moms and single moms.... i have no idea how they do it! I am so fortunate to have a husband that works so hard for me and ruby!!! now if only i could get gratch to listen better, life would be perfect!
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well, you've always valued intelligence over obedience and your dogs know it. gratch will listen exactly as well as he has to and then do exactly what he wants. admit it, you love him that way.
i admit i was surprised you wanted to go this way, but the transition from what you'd been doing to where you are has been smooth - you still are very much the eden we love, and that's reassuring. if you went all stepford on us, i'd be worried.
linda actually went through the same thing in her own way. i remember her agonizing over it a bit, thinking, my god - i'll be a *mom*. i don't know about this. i thought i was supposed to do - i don't know, grander, more important things. but moms are the forefront of the revolution. only by raising thoughtful, fierce independent children will we have adults in future who can advance equality and justice. no one is better suited to this task than you. viva la revolucion!!
You have a wonderful opportunity to "shape the minds of tomorrow". Motherhood is a hugely underestimated and underappreciated task that I know you are and will continue to excel at. Being exceptional is quite simply who you are. Ruby and David are blessed to have you.
I wish you peace, love and happiness.
I see you clearly continuing your fierce independence. It's such an amazing job. I'm so glad that you're happy. It makes me smile to think of you with David and Ruby and Gratch, plotting which country you'll take over next. Muah.
XXOO
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