Wednesday, May 18, 2011

all good

i am feeling really good lately, and i might even try to say that i am almost back to my normal pre-hypothyroid self. 2 months ago my doctor upped my meds to 100mcg, and slowly over the past few weeks things are all good. We can probably factor in our warmer/sunnier weather into the equation, but what ever it may be, i am more me than i have been in the past year. more energy and i have finally started to lose the baby weight that i put on with my pregnancy with esme.
through out the past year, i have tried to refrain from talking about my few extra inches outloud, simply because i am the mother of 2 little impressionable girls. 2 beautiful girls that i do not want to grow up with body image issues, 2 little girls that i try to insulate as much as possible from the media that makes one think that thin is healthy. It is a tough job, and i am constantly keeping an eye open and my ears tuned to it all. luckily thanks to DVDs and the DVR, we can skip many commercials, but i know people say things that the girls wonder about daily. Last fall Ruby said something about "eating makes you fat" which she heard from a friend of hers. Sadly that 3 year old is getting that message at home. Other girls have said things like "lose weight" and "on a diet" because their mothers go to Weight Watchers. Sure we must keep an eye on childhood obesity, but lets face it, thin does not mean healthy or fit. In our house we try to talk about healthy and fit as opposed to fat and skinny. An anorexic might be thin, but is that healthy? could they run 100 yards or ride a bike to school? Probably not.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Photo Challenge Day 30!!!!!

Day 30 A photo of someone you miss
This is my best friend Roo. In May this year it will be 10 years since he died in a car accident. This is my baby-girl Luna. In August it will be 8 years since she passed away. I miss them both very much.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Photo Challenge Day 29

Day 29 A photo of something that makes you smile
i have a huge box of old photos, and every single one of them is in there because they make me smile or laugh. When i moved to Scotland, i could only take so much stuff, so i had to whittle down my photo collections, and some made the cut and some didn't. The above photo is of me when i was 20 years old, with my friend Dave in my dorm at FIU. This picture is great when you put it in context, and think about all the things that happened around this time. It was around this time that Dave met Helen in that dorm. I also met my friend Andy, and my friend Chad that semester. Cindy was my roomie, and we had the perfect view of the dorm volleyball court from this dorm room. Just looking at this picture, memories flood the mind! I won't write them all because i might get in trouble....

Friday, April 15, 2011

Photo Challenge Day 28

Day 28 A photo of something you are afraid of
i remember being about 6 and crying at night, my mom came in and asked me what was wrong and i said "i'm afraid to die!" i think all my life, but more now than ever, i have had a fear of death. Now that i have my girls, i am really afraid that i could die and not see them grow up. I know, it is an irrational fear, and i have tried to come to terms with it, but it has never gone away. other people in my predicament would get religion, and allay their fears with mythology. not yet....

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Photo Challenge Day 27

Day 27 A photo of you and a family member

my mom and i are pretty close. we had some tough times when i was a pain in the ass teenager, but she has been there for me when i really needed her. she has taught me to be a strong woman, to stand up for yourself, to not take shit from anyone, and the importance of doing something right the first time. When they were handing out moms, I got a good one!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Photo Challenge Day 26

Day 26 A photo of something that means a lot to you

portland, oregon is my home. I miss it more than anyplace else, and that is saying alot coming from a gypsy soul like me.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Photo Challange Day 25

Day 25 A photo of your favorite day
when you have 2 little girls, Christmas can't help but be your favorite day! last christmas was wonderful. Ruby knew what was happening, Esme was excited, and we spent it in Florida with family and friends that the girls had not seen before. what can top that?