about a year ago i posted. also about a year ago is the last time i wrote in my journals. about 3 years ago is the last time i actually wrote something that made me feel like i could have called myself a writer. so excuse me for my lapse, i have been quite busy.
today finds me the mom of a 38 month old Ruby and a 15 month old Esme. you can imagine how busy i am. the only reason i am able to write this is because Ruby and Esme are transfixed by Dora the Explorer at this precise moment. this could change. ruby could decide that she actually wants something for breakfast, or esme could come in wanting up on my lap to pound the keyboard. so don't get too excited about seeing a post here.....
i won't even attempt a year catch-up. if people read this, then please look at our flickr pics to see what we have truly been up to. i have been able to keep pics uploaded regularly, it is really my sunday morning ritual to wake up and post pics while drinking a coffee. those pics speak a million words and they show how good my life is....
for months i was not feeling very well, and i kept being told "well you just had a baby, of course you feel poorly!" but i knew it was more than that. sure i should be tired with my lack of sleep, busy mommy schedule and normal stress... but it was beyond that. i knew it, my body knew it. when esme hit 13 months, i knew the old "new baby" excuse couldn't hold up, and i had pretty much decided that i was either in need of anti-depressants OR my thyroid wasn't working properly. Luckily my doctor listened to me, ran a bunch of bloodwork and found out that it was my thyroid. yep, welcome to the world of hypo-thyroidism! i have a great network of friends, and amazingly a large number of people i know are in the same thyroid boat, so i had amazing resources thrown at me. i have now been on my meds (Levothyroxine + loads of herbs and vitamins) over 2 months, and i feel better. not 100%, but better. my mental health is better, my energy levels are better, my metabolism is better, and i am not as much of a pain in the ass as i have been lately... well that is what david says, and he should know better than anyone.
Ruby is amazing. beautiful, smart, funny, caring. we have had some rough patches navigating through the twos, i won't act like it has always been easy, but she is a very good girl. i think part of it is that we realized we had a highly senstive child so we needed to understand that better. I am glad that we came to that information before she started nursery on August 20th, because it helped to make that transition easier for all of us, and to make sure that we listen to ruby more about what she needs and how she copes with certain situations. She is a conundrum at times, a risk taker who doesn't like lots of commotion in her personal space, noise sensitve but can scream like a hollywood actress, a very social/talkative girl who is very reserved in new situations, who likes to sit back and observe before she joins in... it can be hard-work, but rewarding.
Our little Esme isn't a baby anymore! seeing her sitting next to her sister with crayons in hand, it is remarkable that she is almost a toddler! i say almost because she still will not walk. she can climb anything, go up and down stairs, push the toy stroller and ride on her toy lion... but she will not walk! she is getting better, and we are pushing for her to walk on Halloween! This is just indicative of her nature, she is very laid back and mellow. She is very outgoing, loves music, and likes to joke around. She quickly has won Gratch over, and he is clearly her dog now. She has begun to talk, with her first real word being "that" while she points her finger. so funny!
As for the only man in the house, David is doing fine. Currently he is working on making halloween decorations so we can be that one weird house in all of Dunbar that goes ALL OUT on Halloween. It will be easy, because it isn't like it is in the US when it comes to Halloween. He is using "the machine in the shed" (CNC router) that he built to cut out all sort of spooky shapes. this is of course done after work and after all his dad duties, so he is quite busy as usual.
